Have not written a Poker Article in a While....
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HandReading and it's Importance.
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Cicumvent my previous plans
I Rented Some Movies...
1.Deja Vu
Has Denzel Washington. I dunno how good it really is going to be but I like confusing movies- I heard this was one of them.
On a side note: I was supposed to watch this movie already; in fact, I actually ordered it on Jared's room for the cheap price of 9.99 but I was too drunk to stay up.
edited 3:55 AM 05/30/2007
Synopsis and Thoughts:
Very off-the-wall and contrived, to sum-it-up. The story is very unbelievable and loosely written. Fortunately for the writers of the film, they left themselves a easy way to tie in all the"mysteries" they throw at you in the picture. The setting of the film is New Orleans and about half-way through the flick, I was beginning to think that this was just a ploy into getting more money and publicity into New Orleans. Now, this is not say that I do not believe that money and time needs to be put into rebuilding the hurricane ravaged regions of Louisiana but I do not think that a crappy movie needed to be made to justify it.
2. Fantastic 4
I don't know what reason, other than Jessica Alba, I want to see this movie. I like the Marvel movies so far. I hope this one is goot.
3. The Good Shepard.
Not enough information on this one for me to be able to give my thoughts. It does have Matt Damon and De Niro so it should be good. Carter speaks well of it, at least.
4. Smokin Aces
The theatrical previews made this move look unique and appealing enough for me to spend Five Dollars on something that has Ben Affleck in it. Common is a star in the flick though, I like him. Poetic.
Holla. I am off to the movies.
1.Deja Vu
Has Denzel Washington. I dunno how good it really is going to be but I like confusing movies- I heard this was one of them.
On a side note: I was supposed to watch this movie already; in fact, I actually ordered it on Jared's room for the cheap price of 9.99 but I was too drunk to stay up.
edited 3:55 AM 05/30/2007
Synopsis and Thoughts:
Very off-the-wall and contrived, to sum-it-up. The story is very unbelievable and loosely written. Fortunately for the writers of the film, they left themselves a easy way to tie in all the"mysteries" they throw at you in the picture. The setting of the film is New Orleans and about half-way through the flick, I was beginning to think that this was just a ploy into getting more money and publicity into New Orleans. Now, this is not say that I do not believe that money and time needs to be put into rebuilding the hurricane ravaged regions of Louisiana but I do not think that a crappy movie needed to be made to justify it.
2. Fantastic 4
I don't know what reason, other than Jessica Alba, I want to see this movie. I like the Marvel movies so far. I hope this one is goot.
3. The Good Shepard.
Not enough information on this one for me to be able to give my thoughts. It does have Matt Damon and De Niro so it should be good. Carter speaks well of it, at least.
4. Smokin Aces
The theatrical previews made this move look unique and appealing enough for me to spend Five Dollars on something that has Ben Affleck in it. Common is a star in the flick though, I like him. Poetic.
Holla. I am off to the movies.
Putting it Up...
...or at least I am trying.
I have spent a total of nine hours at the basketball court in the past two days. I needed to take Carter's advice and just go out there and work on my shot. I know I need to get my "shot" back, in more ways than one. I have talked about it retaining some constancy for some while now. This "shot", is not just in respect to my basketball skills but also my personal life and my poker career.
So, with respect to my friend undergoing a quintuple bypass surgery, I have really taken a new outlook on my life. Everyday that I wasted away getting drunk for no reason, staring at a useless box, or all the unnecessary stress I put on myself will only land me in the same hospital bed.
Granted, I am healthy and young. I will only be healthy and young for a short time. I need to exploit all the resources and opportunities I have in front of me.
Here We Go.... Check List Time.
1. Drinking.
Wee. I finally stopped getting drunk because I was bored or had nothing else to do. I hated being looked at like a "drunk" when I am far from it. When Jared says, "Mo, you should bring a bottle out so you can have fun while we are playing Poker." Eh, I don't like the sound of that.
I did get really drunk during my weekend in Orlando but that is neither here or there.
2. Poker.
I can play more once they fix my Internet. I made a few really bad and tilty plays that dropped me down 6 buy-ins. I have to remember: Patience is the key of Poker.
3.Exercise and Basketball.
I am back to my normal exercise habits. I gained 20lbs when I started working behind a desk. I have lost ten already. On the court, getting a lot better at making my free throws and distance jump shots and am getting more comfortable with the basketball again.
4. Life Habits.
I am done going out during the weekdays. Not just because I will just get drunk, which really is not that big of a deal- If I want to be a loser for the rest of my life, but I will spend too much money and not allow myself to save up the amount of money I need in the bank to set-off my own professional journey.
OK, so that is there to just slap me in the face and push me into getting my swagger back.
I have another post ready but I will wait till a-bit later to throw that one up.
It has to do with a Brazilian, Tim Duncan, and fucking Marijuana.
Holla.
I have spent a total of nine hours at the basketball court in the past two days. I needed to take Carter's advice and just go out there and work on my shot. I know I need to get my "shot" back, in more ways than one. I have talked about it retaining some constancy for some while now. This "shot", is not just in respect to my basketball skills but also my personal life and my poker career.
So, with respect to my friend undergoing a quintuple bypass surgery, I have really taken a new outlook on my life. Everyday that I wasted away getting drunk for no reason, staring at a useless box, or all the unnecessary stress I put on myself will only land me in the same hospital bed.
Granted, I am healthy and young. I will only be healthy and young for a short time. I need to exploit all the resources and opportunities I have in front of me.
Here We Go.... Check List Time.
1. Drinking.
Wee. I finally stopped getting drunk because I was bored or had nothing else to do. I hated being looked at like a "drunk" when I am far from it. When Jared says, "Mo, you should bring a bottle out so you can have fun while we are playing Poker." Eh, I don't like the sound of that.
I did get really drunk during my weekend in Orlando but that is neither here or there.
2. Poker.
I can play more once they fix my Internet. I made a few really bad and tilty plays that dropped me down 6 buy-ins. I have to remember: Patience is the key of Poker.
3.Exercise and Basketball.
I am back to my normal exercise habits. I gained 20lbs when I started working behind a desk. I have lost ten already. On the court, getting a lot better at making my free throws and distance jump shots and am getting more comfortable with the basketball again.
4. Life Habits.
I am done going out during the weekdays. Not just because I will just get drunk, which really is not that big of a deal- If I want to be a loser for the rest of my life, but I will spend too much money and not allow myself to save up the amount of money I need in the bank to set-off my own professional journey.
OK, so that is there to just slap me in the face and push me into getting my swagger back.
I have another post ready but I will wait till a-bit later to throw that one up.
It has to do with a Brazilian, Tim Duncan, and fucking Marijuana.
Holla.
Monday, May 28, 2007
They say, " Bad Things Happen to Good People..."
...and Deaths come in Threes.
This entry is a quick one and will epand on it later today. This really comes at a perfrect time, just another drive or leap in this giant leap I have made in fixing myself.
I hope deaths really do not come in threes because I have had two friends die already recently and I don't want to see a old colleauge of mine lose his life this week.
Heartattack. It is not like I did not see it coming for him at one point of his life but I feel like I could have helped a bit more when he asked for help with his weight and eating habits.
Well, my good friend is lying in ICU right now.
I think this means I will be doing another 3 hour sessions at the ballcourt again tonight for some stress release.
Thursday, May 24, 2007
2+2
=Donks Telling Donks How to Play...
(Part 2: Un-Tilted)
Great stuff. I never religiously frequented the 2+2 Forums but recently I have been browsing several different sections of the popular site. These forums at 2+2 has a wealthy amount of information and a-lot can be learned by reading the various threads. Granted, there is also plenty of misinformation, especially at the lower stakes. So many posters think they are giving good advice when they doing the complete opposite.
The NBA playoffs have not really been going my way either. I wanted to see NJ move a little farther in the quest for the Eastern Conference title but the team's stars are getting old and could not hang on against a young and very talented Cavs team. I am fully expecting to see SA win the west, unless Utah can do it's thing at home in these final games of the series. As for the west, I really think that the Pistons and Cavs is a great match-up and has been a "nail biting' series for me. I really like Cleveland but I think Detroit has the powerhouse players it needs to pick-apart a semi-novice team.
Taken From ESPN.com
On another note, I have been way too busy. I have been second guessing quitting my job in Insurance but it is only because of the hours I am working right now. I understand that the store I am at is busy and shorthanded so I am exploited my opportunity to make some extra money and put it away.
So, if said it once and I will say it again: I hate delivering pizzas. I hate doing it in the sticks. I hate the people you have to come in contact with. I hate it, in general.
Anyways, that was just my "two cents" for the past couple days past. Not much exciting happened so I just flew through this post.
I avoided mentioning something that really put me over the edge. I kinda mentioned it but I really think it has little bearing on my life and should just drive me to get what I want.
Just one thing before I bounce. I will just get it off my chest right now.
There is a big difference between being jelouse and asking for some respect. I don't want to know what is going on in your life and I don't want someone else thinking like they know what is going on with mine.
(Part 2: Un-Tilted)
Man, my life seems a bit wrinkled and spotted recently; but, It has not been a complete 'wash' though. I feel like I am on the "spin cycle" and just get getting thrown around. That is ok, cause that means I am "clean" and am ready to be thrown in the "dryer" for my final trip before I make it wherever I dream. So, I hope if I am anything, I am the Armani in Hov's closet because I have some very expensive dreams.
Just a few things I wanted to talk about before I head to "hell" for the rest of my night.
Great stuff. I never religiously frequented the 2+2 Forums but recently I have been browsing several different sections of the popular site. These forums at 2+2 has a wealthy amount of information and a-lot can be learned by reading the various threads. Granted, there is also plenty of misinformation, especially at the lower stakes. So many posters think they are giving good advice when they doing the complete opposite.
The NBA playoffs have not really been going my way either. I wanted to see NJ move a little farther in the quest for the Eastern Conference title but the team's stars are getting old and could not hang on against a young and very talented Cavs team. I am fully expecting to see SA win the west, unless Utah can do it's thing at home in these final games of the series. As for the west, I really think that the Pistons and Cavs is a great match-up and has been a "nail biting' series for me. I really like Cleveland but I think Detroit has the powerhouse players it needs to pick-apart a semi-novice team.
Taken From ESPN.comOn another note, I have been way too busy. I have been second guessing quitting my job in Insurance but it is only because of the hours I am working right now. I understand that the store I am at is busy and shorthanded so I am exploited my opportunity to make some extra money and put it away.
So, if said it once and I will say it again: I hate delivering pizzas. I hate doing it in the sticks. I hate the people you have to come in contact with. I hate it, in general.
Anyways, that was just my "two cents" for the past couple days past. Not much exciting happened so I just flew through this post.
I avoided mentioning something that really put me over the edge. I kinda mentioned it but I really think it has little bearing on my life and should just drive me to get what I want.
Just one thing before I bounce. I will just get it off my chest right now.
There is a big difference between being jelouse and asking for some respect. I don't want to know what is going on in your life and I don't want someone else thinking like they know what is going on with mine.
2+2
= WTF is going on...
I started this piece earlier today but, of course, something happened with my Internet connection and the post never saved or made it online. Just another tilt factor, I guess.
Well, I guess I got lucky because I have a bit more inspiration for my rant this morning.
When can you look in a mirror and not be guilty of what you are?
When you are honest with yourself you are able to achieve whatever is possible; especially, when you are young, intelligent, and ambitious.
Of course, people always have there demons. Thoughts or feelings, buried, that lock yourself from the rest of the world.
So, as I rewrite this post, I just want to reflect on a few things:
1. Going to sleep, when the sun comes up, is a disgusting habit and needs to stop. ( This is first because the sun is coming up as I type.)
2. Let Go. Whatever. if she wants to rubs the shit in my face. Eat it and move on. I am a bigger man than that.
You know you have the world. I am happy for you. I need to find mine.
3. Drank. OK. OK.OK. I have been stressed and might not be handling it the right way.
4. Poker. Play fucking more. Work less. Make monies.
6. Skip Five, because fuck all y'all...I am out.
I started this piece earlier today but, of course, something happened with my Internet connection and the post never saved or made it online. Just another tilt factor, I guess.
Well, I guess I got lucky because I have a bit more inspiration for my rant this morning.
When can you look in a mirror and not be guilty of what you are?
When you are honest with yourself you are able to achieve whatever is possible; especially, when you are young, intelligent, and ambitious.
Of course, people always have there demons. Thoughts or feelings, buried, that lock yourself from the rest of the world.
So, as I rewrite this post, I just want to reflect on a few things:
1. Going to sleep, when the sun comes up, is a disgusting habit and needs to stop. ( This is first because the sun is coming up as I type.)
2. Let Go. Whatever. if she wants to rubs the shit in my face. Eat it and move on. I am a bigger man than that.
You know you have the world. I am happy for you. I need to find mine.
3. Drank. OK. OK.OK. I have been stressed and might not be handling it the right way.
4. Poker. Play fucking more. Work less. Make monies.
6. Skip Five, because fuck all y'all...I am out.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Inside
Lets Get Personal...
"I feel lost. Feel as if I have no destination. No self-worth. No real dream I have is achievable.."
I think like this when I am depressed or lost...
I have accomplished many of my dreams. I am happy. I have great people in my life that will do anything for me. I rant about this all the time.
My Question is:
"Why is the occasional mental torment?"
OK, so I might be acting a bit dramatic here but I still think it is a relevant question. Not just for me but for everyone in this world.
So Swing with Me...
Take a second to think about the times where you felt like you where in a hole. Whether you are indebted to someone, depressed, or lonely. We all fall into these holes and have ways of coping. These stages are only natural for a compassionate person. These same people are capable of achieving what their dreams and expanding the wealth on to friends and family.
Overcoming these obstacles only makes us stronger.
Money has never been important to me. I will give everything I own to save a friend, to help a friend. Shit, I have even helped people I do not even know. I need to think about myself a-bit more.
I have been learning to cope with every aspect of my life and realizing that I am a adult that has to grind his own path to success for the future.
I have talked a-lot about my poker goals but these are what I really need to focus on:
1. Confidence and Self-Worth.
I lost this somewhere. It might have been after a relationship, after digging myself a whole for 2 years, or for whatever reason- I need to reestablish myself. In another respect, I like the fact that I am respectful of women now and don't just rush up to them like objects in clubs or bars.
2. Paying off my house.
There are plenty of bills that I am responsible for every month. Why do you fucking think I want to make $100 per hour. This will only be another push in my drive to playing professionally.
3. Save Money.
Talked about this already. I am working on it and it is working well.
4. Live with my Regrets.
I respect Jay-Z more than other entertainer or celebrity.
In Reasonable Doubt, HOV said "In order to survive, you must learn to live regrets."
So, I need to do this. I don't get to personal here but there are things that I try to push down with Smirnoff on occasion.
If I can accomplish these goals, especially the last one, I will be on the pace to make it to where ever I want.
"I feel lost. Feel as if I have no destination. No self-worth. No real dream I have is achievable.."
I think like this when I am depressed or lost...
I have accomplished many of my dreams. I am happy. I have great people in my life that will do anything for me. I rant about this all the time.
My Question is:
"Why is the occasional mental torment?"
OK, so I might be acting a bit dramatic here but I still think it is a relevant question. Not just for me but for everyone in this world.
So Swing with Me...
Take a second to think about the times where you felt like you where in a hole. Whether you are indebted to someone, depressed, or lonely. We all fall into these holes and have ways of coping. These stages are only natural for a compassionate person. These same people are capable of achieving what their dreams and expanding the wealth on to friends and family.
Overcoming these obstacles only makes us stronger.
Money has never been important to me. I will give everything I own to save a friend, to help a friend. Shit, I have even helped people I do not even know. I need to think about myself a-bit more.
I have been learning to cope with every aspect of my life and realizing that I am a adult that has to grind his own path to success for the future.
I have talked a-lot about my poker goals but these are what I really need to focus on:
1. Confidence and Self-Worth.
I lost this somewhere. It might have been after a relationship, after digging myself a whole for 2 years, or for whatever reason- I need to reestablish myself. In another respect, I like the fact that I am respectful of women now and don't just rush up to them like objects in clubs or bars.
2. Paying off my house.
There are plenty of bills that I am responsible for every month. Why do you fucking think I want to make $100 per hour. This will only be another push in my drive to playing professionally.
3. Save Money.
Talked about this already. I am working on it and it is working well.
4. Live with my Regrets.
I respect Jay-Z more than other entertainer or celebrity.
In Reasonable Doubt, HOV said "In order to survive, you must learn to live regrets."
So, I need to do this. I don't get to personal here but there are things that I try to push down with Smirnoff on occasion.
If I can accomplish these goals, especially the last one, I will be on the pace to make it to where ever I want.
Monday, May 21, 2007
On The Grind
The Growing Pains of Success...
Delivering pizza is not glorious. Go Figure. How did I go from having a respected job to driving around all day depending on the gratuity of trailer trash and 3PM drunks. Granted there are plenty of nice housing delevopments in this area of Florida but the majority of this "s-hole" is a conglomroation of resididences with cinderblocks in the driveway, overgrown lawns, kids running around in the street barefoot, straw-muching-stereotype rednecks, brokedown-oil leaking cars, and the dreaded grundgy dog that wants to destroy you and the food you are carrying. The job pays though; and, I might add that it was pays well.
I was making about the same wage sitting behind a desk for 50 hours a week for a major corporation and now I make the same, or more, sitting behinid the weel of my car with a box of "garcia-vegas" and Jay-Z bumping in the stereo. OK, the money is not always constant but every week eventually evens out and I make about 15 to 16 dollars per hour. Being friends with my "vertically-challenged" General Manager allows me more freedom to set my own schedule and keep a nonchanalante attitude to the job.
Nevertheless, I do not want to deliver pizzas. Coming home and having your new car and your whole body smelling like a grease trap, putting hundereds of miles on a car that will only depreciate, and the fact that it is not a very glamorous line of work pushes me to achieve my goals so I can move on with my life.
Of course, there are some steps I need to take before I can just quit this job. So here we go with another checklist...
1. Save money.
The fun part., AKA, this is going to be the hardest part for me right now. I have gone through several stages of my life where I was excellent at putting away money. I was more responsible with regards to how and what I was spending my money on. I have been working on revert back to these savings habits and the process has been going smoothely.
2. Play more poker.
Self-explinitory: I need to play at least 1500 hands-a-day and total of 30-40 thousand hands per month. This is a easily attainable goal but it will only be successful if I can accomplish my final goal.
3. Wake Up.
Fucking wake up in the morning. No more "Xak's School of Life" and waking up at 3:30-4 when I have to work. I need to accomplish more daily and this will only happen if I implement the willpower and wake up when my alarm goes off.
I think if I accomplish each of these goals, I will be well on my course to playing Poker proffessionally. I have made drastic improvements to my game in the past month and I am ready to hit the higher levels again. I need to get more hands in, save up my money offline, become more productive, and I will be able to achieve anything I desire.
Delivering pizza is not glorious. Go Figure. How did I go from having a respected job to driving around all day depending on the gratuity of trailer trash and 3PM drunks. Granted there are plenty of nice housing delevopments in this area of Florida but the majority of this "s-hole" is a conglomroation of resididences with cinderblocks in the driveway, overgrown lawns, kids running around in the street barefoot, straw-muching-stereotype rednecks, brokedown-oil leaking cars, and the dreaded grundgy dog that wants to destroy you and the food you are carrying. The job pays though; and, I might add that it was pays well.
I was making about the same wage sitting behind a desk for 50 hours a week for a major corporation and now I make the same, or more, sitting behinid the weel of my car with a box of "garcia-vegas" and Jay-Z bumping in the stereo. OK, the money is not always constant but every week eventually evens out and I make about 15 to 16 dollars per hour. Being friends with my "vertically-challenged" General Manager allows me more freedom to set my own schedule and keep a nonchanalante attitude to the job.
Nevertheless, I do not want to deliver pizzas. Coming home and having your new car and your whole body smelling like a grease trap, putting hundereds of miles on a car that will only depreciate, and the fact that it is not a very glamorous line of work pushes me to achieve my goals so I can move on with my life.
Of course, there are some steps I need to take before I can just quit this job. So here we go with another checklist...
1. Save money.
The fun part., AKA, this is going to be the hardest part for me right now. I have gone through several stages of my life where I was excellent at putting away money. I was more responsible with regards to how and what I was spending my money on. I have been working on revert back to these savings habits and the process has been going smoothely.
2. Play more poker.
Self-explinitory: I need to play at least 1500 hands-a-day and total of 30-40 thousand hands per month. This is a easily attainable goal but it will only be successful if I can accomplish my final goal.
3. Wake Up.
Fucking wake up in the morning. No more "Xak's School of Life" and waking up at 3:30-4 when I have to work. I need to accomplish more daily and this will only happen if I implement the willpower and wake up when my alarm goes off.
I think if I accomplish each of these goals, I will be well on my course to playing Poker proffessionally. I have made drastic improvements to my game in the past month and I am ready to hit the higher levels again. I need to get more hands in, save up my money offline, become more productive, and I will be able to achieve anything I desire.
Thursday, May 17, 2007
Fixing the Plumbing
Mending those Leaks
I am now at a point in my game where I really have to make sure I minimize the mistakes I am making. I have noticed some of the things that I am doing that are negating everything that I am doing to make money.
Just a few aspects of my game that I want to work on:
1. I need to cold call more in position and try to be a little less aggressive at certain situations. My aggression factor was way too high on the flop. I am raising people when I should be floating or folding. Granted I am taking this from a small sample of hands, I think improving on this will only help me in the long run.
2. Multi-Street bluffs do not work. Stop open pushing rivers hoping people fold. Yea, these moves work occasionally but they need to be very well timed. As Jared mentioned in one his articles that can be found on Poker Dynasty: The density of bad players at this level is much greater. These players are not capable of laying down hands a "thinking" player will easily let go of.
3. Play more hands. Jesus, have I been doing this. Not enough though. I need to get up earlier in the morning and grind, grind, grind.
I am proud to say I have fixed two very important leaks in my game:
1. I am not playing drunk anymore.
2. I do not go on mega tilt when I get outdrawn.
There are defiantly more things I need to touch on but I am taking a different approach to everything.
Tomorrow, I will go in depth on the habits required to save money. Saving money is something I believe a lot of poker players have a problem doing and I want to dissect this and a analyze my own situation.
I am now at a point in my game where I really have to make sure I minimize the mistakes I am making. I have noticed some of the things that I am doing that are negating everything that I am doing to make money.
Just a few aspects of my game that I want to work on:
1. I need to cold call more in position and try to be a little less aggressive at certain situations. My aggression factor was way too high on the flop. I am raising people when I should be floating or folding. Granted I am taking this from a small sample of hands, I think improving on this will only help me in the long run.
2. Multi-Street bluffs do not work. Stop open pushing rivers hoping people fold. Yea, these moves work occasionally but they need to be very well timed. As Jared mentioned in one his articles that can be found on Poker Dynasty: The density of bad players at this level is much greater. These players are not capable of laying down hands a "thinking" player will easily let go of.
3. Play more hands. Jesus, have I been doing this. Not enough though. I need to get up earlier in the morning and grind, grind, grind.
I am proud to say I have fixed two very important leaks in my game:
1. I am not playing drunk anymore.
2. I do not go on mega tilt when I get outdrawn.
There are defiantly more things I need to touch on but I am taking a different approach to everything.
Tomorrow, I will go in depth on the habits required to save money. Saving money is something I believe a lot of poker players have a problem doing and I want to dissect this and a analyze my own situation.
Monday, May 14, 2007
Spew Monster
Need to fix these leaks....
I play very well most the time. These past two days I felt that I have made so many crucial mistakes that I can avoid. Thank God I have Poker Tracker and can see the mistakes I made.
Here is the heart crushing graph showing May 12th through the 15th. This by no means hurt my bankroll and I am still able to play normally but I would be a much more profitable player if I can avoid making these stupid mistakes and errors in judgment.
Here is the link because it wont fit on the blog....
I play very well most the time. These past two days I felt that I have made so many crucial mistakes that I can avoid. Thank God I have Poker Tracker and can see the mistakes I made.
Here is the heart crushing graph showing May 12th through the 15th. This by no means hurt my bankroll and I am still able to play normally but I would be a much more profitable player if I can avoid making these stupid mistakes and errors in judgment.
Here is the link because it wont fit on the blog....
Sunday, May 13, 2007
Pardon Me...
Wow...There is a lot going on right now...
OK. Everything is moving. Fast. My life is changing faster than I have ever expected. The problem is: The change has not yet been for the positive.
I am making my introductory step into my own future. I want to regulate every part of my life. I do not want to be robotic but I want to be able to look thirty years from now and say, " I am comfortable and happy."
Well, I can monitor my spending, I can play good poker, I can work insurance, I can do whatever I want but the human soul needs fulfillment, especially mine. Fulfilment is the quintessential motive for one to achieve any level of success.
I hear one of my best friends ambitions are to marry and have children, develop a household, and essentially live the "American Dream".
Wow. How have we never talked about how we feel the same way. We all need to feel fulfilled.
Obviously, there is a big difference between all of us. Those who love me, hate me, or don't care. I want to address everything before I continue with my life and find my road to fulfilment.
The current conflict between the people I care about the most; if there even is one, is ridiculous. I don't think anything but fate drove every single one of us together. Obviously, everyone has flaws and we all make mistakes. I make more mistakes than anyone else I know. The main thing I want to express is that I will do anything for anyone of these people.
There are also those who look down on me for quiting my job and pursuing what makes me happiest and it might have been a brash decision; but, the decision was mine to make. I was not any happier making a salary than I would be playing poker. So FUCK YOU, emphatically, I have not reason in hell to ever care why anyone ever hates on me for any reason because I have seen enough of it. If it makes you happy seeing me sad. Fine. Know that I will sit here in torment as long as I have my family, my dog, and my friends.
As for Mo D, himself, I do what I need to do. I am playing poker and working. I am saving money. Delivering pizzas is a big change from having a respectable desk job. I am doing everything I need to do to push myself forward.
Those who think I am not happy are kinda wrong. I am not completely happy because I am not settled. I know all my own flaws but lacked the willpower to fix them. I know what I want and am just acquiring the drive to acquire it. I want to mend myself and drive into a future in which my offspring will be proud to say that I am their Father.
So in respect to everything I just said: I have broke down and spewed to everyone who reads my thoughts and came across something that just hit me.
I have no idea what made me pick up this Incubus album I had in my old collection but I was listening to it and came across something that I can relate to.
"A decade ago, I never thought I would be,at twenty-three,
on the verge of spontaneous combustion. -Woe-is-me.-
...An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.I need you to hear, I need you to see that I have had all I can take and exploding seems like a definite possibility to me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and it's people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...I'll never be the same! "
I will never be the same but I will never change.
OK. Everything is moving. Fast. My life is changing faster than I have ever expected. The problem is: The change has not yet been for the positive.
I am making my introductory step into my own future. I want to regulate every part of my life. I do not want to be robotic but I want to be able to look thirty years from now and say, " I am comfortable and happy."
Well, I can monitor my spending, I can play good poker, I can work insurance, I can do whatever I want but the human soul needs fulfillment, especially mine. Fulfilment is the quintessential motive for one to achieve any level of success.
I hear one of my best friends ambitions are to marry and have children, develop a household, and essentially live the "American Dream".
Wow. How have we never talked about how we feel the same way. We all need to feel fulfilled.
Obviously, there is a big difference between all of us. Those who love me, hate me, or don't care. I want to address everything before I continue with my life and find my road to fulfilment.
The current conflict between the people I care about the most; if there even is one, is ridiculous. I don't think anything but fate drove every single one of us together. Obviously, everyone has flaws and we all make mistakes. I make more mistakes than anyone else I know. The main thing I want to express is that I will do anything for anyone of these people.
There are also those who look down on me for quiting my job and pursuing what makes me happiest and it might have been a brash decision; but, the decision was mine to make. I was not any happier making a salary than I would be playing poker. So FUCK YOU, emphatically, I have not reason in hell to ever care why anyone ever hates on me for any reason because I have seen enough of it. If it makes you happy seeing me sad. Fine. Know that I will sit here in torment as long as I have my family, my dog, and my friends.
As for Mo D, himself, I do what I need to do. I am playing poker and working. I am saving money. Delivering pizzas is a big change from having a respectable desk job. I am doing everything I need to do to push myself forward.
Those who think I am not happy are kinda wrong. I am not completely happy because I am not settled. I know all my own flaws but lacked the willpower to fix them. I know what I want and am just acquiring the drive to acquire it. I want to mend myself and drive into a future in which my offspring will be proud to say that I am their Father.
So in respect to everything I just said: I have broke down and spewed to everyone who reads my thoughts and came across something that just hit me.
I have no idea what made me pick up this Incubus album I had in my old collection but I was listening to it and came across something that I can relate to.
"A decade ago, I never thought I would be,at twenty-three,
on the verge of spontaneous combustion. -Woe-is-me.-
...An ominous landscape of never-ending calamity.I need you to hear, I need you to see that I have had all I can take and exploding seems like a definite possibility to me.
So pardon me while I burst into flames.
I've had enough of the world and it's people's mindless games.
So pardon me while I burn and rise above the flame.
Pardon me, pardon me...I'll never be the same! "
I will never be the same but I will never change.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
My Decision...
What is Me? What is I? Who is I? What can I be?
(Drunk Blog Entry #1...Deep inside teh mind.)
My name is Mohammad. Given the name of one of the most respected prophets in history.
I have always been expected to go "above and beyond".
I was born in Baghdad. Iraq and came to the US at a very young age.
"I consider myself a American, as I am a citizen, and look at the world differently than most that are born and accustomed to this beautiful society. A melting pot of different cultures and people make the US the greatest nation in the world but fitting in with this culture becomes hard."
This is what I think: At least I know I am thinking wrong....
I am smarter, more coercive, intellectual and outgoing than most anyone I know. In school, I was able to beat anyone grade, score, fuck it....anything. (mind you I am drunk)
So, I worry about punctuation and making sense. I worry about how people think about me and making cents. I worry about smart poker and girls. I worry about a woman. I worry about to much.
I do not worry about myself.
Too much many do not know about...Too much that kills my soul. In all essence, too much for me to handle sometimes.
I kinda feel disgraced typing this up so rashly and without thinking but it is what I feel and what I want to convey.
1.I am alone.
2. I have having my own house that I have the responsibilty of paying for.
3. I love poker and the work I am putting on playing professional.
4. My health is failing.
So, I am borderline now. I can do anything I want. Anyone who reads my blog knows they can do ANYTHING their heart desires. I can too.
Poker is not "2+2". It is not books. It is not fucking reading. It is not anything if one does not have self control. Everyone is out there, running there fucking mouths like they know somethings. I know that: I have lost money for two years, I WAS a fish, and had to bust my ass to be respected in life and poker.
SO.....In lieu, of little blogs trying to push there voice. I push away little blogs like they some lame ass noise. I'm like, " Ewe, Little BITCH, you have to understand....I worked damn hard to get to where I am. I made mistakes hanging with stupid fucks before...all I know know is those are mistakes I am not going to make no more. So, I decide, fucks these bitches and who they think I am, Im done pleasing everyone when even I do not know who I am,,,,"
Mo D has skeletons in his closet and I think it might be time for "50topwnage" to come to a end.
Making a blog strictly about poker is not suitable for me considering my life is constantly filled with turmoil and duress.
If I consider making another blog: It will be my Diary.
I am lucky for the most part but, in my mind, I have a lot of work to do.
Work that needs to be done so I can live my dreams. So I can do what I am capable of.
Poker has been great. I have been, ugh, working part-time to save up some living expenses but I am planning on going pro.
I thank everyone for all there support. Namely: Jared, Ryan, Tony(Whodatdere), and many others.
I have many of my own issues to work and I guess I cannot cry on someting that I made to help my poker career. A blog I made to help others enhance there own game....
So with that said.....
Back to Mo D the Hustler: The Villain is Dead.
(Drunk Blog Entry #1...Deep inside teh mind.)
My name is Mohammad. Given the name of one of the most respected prophets in history.
I have always been expected to go "above and beyond".
I was born in Baghdad. Iraq and came to the US at a very young age.
"I consider myself a American, as I am a citizen, and look at the world differently than most that are born and accustomed to this beautiful society. A melting pot of different cultures and people make the US the greatest nation in the world but fitting in with this culture becomes hard."
This is what I think: At least I know I am thinking wrong....
I am smarter, more coercive, intellectual and outgoing than most anyone I know. In school, I was able to beat anyone grade, score, fuck it....anything. (mind you I am drunk)
So, I worry about punctuation and making sense. I worry about how people think about me and making cents. I worry about smart poker and girls. I worry about a woman. I worry about to much.
I do not worry about myself.
Too much many do not know about...Too much that kills my soul. In all essence, too much for me to handle sometimes.
I kinda feel disgraced typing this up so rashly and without thinking but it is what I feel and what I want to convey.
1.I am alone.
2. I have having my own house that I have the responsibilty of paying for.
3. I love poker and the work I am putting on playing professional.
4. My health is failing.
So, I am borderline now. I can do anything I want. Anyone who reads my blog knows they can do ANYTHING their heart desires. I can too.
Poker is not "2+2". It is not books. It is not fucking reading. It is not anything if one does not have self control. Everyone is out there, running there fucking mouths like they know somethings. I know that: I have lost money for two years, I WAS a fish, and had to bust my ass to be respected in life and poker.
SO.....In lieu, of little blogs trying to push there voice. I push away little blogs like they some lame ass noise. I'm like, " Ewe, Little BITCH, you have to understand....I worked damn hard to get to where I am. I made mistakes hanging with stupid fucks before...all I know know is those are mistakes I am not going to make no more. So, I decide, fucks these bitches and who they think I am, Im done pleasing everyone when even I do not know who I am,,,,"
Mo D has skeletons in his closet and I think it might be time for "50topwnage" to come to a end.
Making a blog strictly about poker is not suitable for me considering my life is constantly filled with turmoil and duress.
If I consider making another blog: It will be my Diary.
I am lucky for the most part but, in my mind, I have a lot of work to do.
Work that needs to be done so I can live my dreams. So I can do what I am capable of.
Poker has been great. I have been, ugh, working part-time to save up some living expenses but I am planning on going pro.
I thank everyone for all there support. Namely: Jared, Ryan, Tony(Whodatdere), and many others.
I have many of my own issues to work and I guess I cannot cry on someting that I made to help my poker career. A blog I made to help others enhance there own game....
So with that said.....
Back to Mo D the Hustler: The Villain is Dead.
Tuesday, May 1, 2007
Aint No One Dumpin On Hov....
How you Looking at Hove like I did something wrong......
Jay-Z has always been one of my favorite artists. I used to debate who was better: Nas or Hov.
The answer should be self-explanatory. Hov is the man.
I was pessimistic about his new album but after finally listening to it: I have decided that Jay-Z has not fallen off and on top of his game.
Plus, have I ever mentioned how much I love Giada De Laurentis....Pleaze read this one day and holla at me.
Jay-Z has always been one of my favorite artists. I used to debate who was better: Nas or Hov.
The answer should be self-explanatory. Hov is the man.
I was pessimistic about his new album but after finally listening to it: I have decided that Jay-Z has not fallen off and on top of his game.
Plus, have I ever mentioned how much I love Giada De Laurentis....Pleaze read this one day and holla at me.
$100 NL
Villain...I am so sorry...
I know Villain. I wanted to play 1 million, lol, hands yesterday and I ended up playing almost 3000.
Every since I have been playing pursuing playing professionally, I look at poker as my job and play several times per day, if I can. The most important thing is that I play and keep focused %100 of the time and log at least 3 hours of game time and 1 hour of study a day.
I made some big mistakes in my first session yesterday. I pushed a couple times when I knew I was behind. I pushed draws with almost no "fold equity". I made a couple of pretty bad decision that lead to me losing 3-4 buy ins. Later I logged another 1000 hands and focused on my mistakes and the nuances of eight-tabling. It worked Goot and I broke even.
Then I had my ninja session. I said I don't play poker drunk. I had three decent size Yuenglings in me at this point. I only mention this because I made decisions more readily and followed my gut. I was playing the best poker ever cause I did not second guess my natural instinct once.
I saw a regular Dynasty poster who plays professionally for a living also sitting at a $.5/1.00 table and I thought I would have some fun.
One Big Hand:
Seat 1: VicMat ($9.50)
Seat 3: iamVillaiNmo ($103.65)
Seat 4: jekkepot ($23)
Seat 5: kangeby ($56.45)
Seat 6: VillaiN ($263.55)
jekkepot posts the small blind of $0.5
0kangeby posts the big blind of $1
The button is in seat #3
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to iamVillaiNmo [8h 8d]
Villain raises to $3.50
VicMat folds
iamVillaiNmo calls $3.50
jekkepot foldskangeby folds
*** FLOP ***
[2s 6c Qc]
VillaiN bets $6
iamVillaiNmo calls $6
*** TURN *** [2s 6c Qc] [8c]
Colonel Mustard bets $18
iamVillaiNmo calls $18
*** RIVER *** [2s 6c Qc 8c] [3h]
Villain bets $236.05, and is all in
iamVillaiNmo: i only call cause it is"Players Name Here"
iamVillaiNmo calls $76.15, and is all inUncalled bet of $159.90 returned to Villain.
Showdown:
Villain shows AK. Mo D shows Three Eights and it holds up.
I was kinda worried because earlier the biggerst FISH in the world sits at my normal table.
This guy thinks he is so fucking funny....
Full Tilt Poker Game #2322855640: Table Dester (6 max) - $0.10/$0.25 - No Limit Hold'em - 18:08:16 ET - 2007/04/30
Seat 1: Callahanharry ($46.05)
Seat 2: Spear1 ($25.95)
Seat 3: Spartas300 ($24.15)
Seat 4: Jacko23 ($23.15)
Seat 5: Nannuckk ($24.35)
Seat 6: iamVillaiNmo ($25)
Nannuckk posts the small blind of $0.10
iamVillaiNmo posts the big blind of $0.25
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to iamVillaiNmo [4h 4d]
Callahanharry calls $0.25
Spear1 raises to $1.10
Spartas300 folds
Jacko23 folds
Nannuckk folds
iamVillaiNmo raises to $3.65
Callahanharry folds
iamVillaiNmo: lol
Spear1 calls $2.55
*** FLOP *** [7h 4s Js]
iamVillaiNmo bets $4
Spear1 calls $4
*** TURN *** [7h 4s Js] [3d]
iamVillaiNmo checks
Spear1 bets $18.30, and is all in
iamVillaiNmo calls $17.35, and is all inSpear1 shows [3s 7c]
iamVillaiNmo shows [4h 4d]
iamVillaiNmo: lololol
*** RIVER *** [7h 4s Js 3d] [7d]
Spear1 shows a full house, Sevens full of Threes
iamVillaiNmo shows a full house, Fours full of house, Sevens full of Threes
iamVillaiNmo: ahghgghqes
Spear1: LOLOLOLOLOL
iamVillaiNmo is sitting out
I guess 73 is the nuts.
I know Villain. I wanted to play 1 million, lol, hands yesterday and I ended up playing almost 3000.
Every since I have been playing pursuing playing professionally, I look at poker as my job and play several times per day, if I can. The most important thing is that I play and keep focused %100 of the time and log at least 3 hours of game time and 1 hour of study a day.
I made some big mistakes in my first session yesterday. I pushed a couple times when I knew I was behind. I pushed draws with almost no "fold equity". I made a couple of pretty bad decision that lead to me losing 3-4 buy ins. Later I logged another 1000 hands and focused on my mistakes and the nuances of eight-tabling. It worked Goot and I broke even.
Then I had my ninja session. I said I don't play poker drunk. I had three decent size Yuenglings in me at this point. I only mention this because I made decisions more readily and followed my gut. I was playing the best poker ever cause I did not second guess my natural instinct once.
I saw a regular Dynasty poster who plays professionally for a living also sitting at a $.5/1.00 table and I thought I would have some fun.
One Big Hand:
Seat 1: VicMat ($9.50)
Seat 3: iamVillaiNmo ($103.65)
Seat 4: jekkepot ($23)
Seat 5: kangeby ($56.45)
Seat 6: VillaiN ($263.55)
jekkepot posts the small blind of $0.5
0kangeby posts the big blind of $1
The button is in seat #3
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to iamVillaiNmo [8h 8d]
Villain raises to $3.50
VicMat folds
iamVillaiNmo calls $3.50
jekkepot foldskangeby folds
*** FLOP ***
[2s 6c Qc]
VillaiN bets $6
iamVillaiNmo calls $6
*** TURN *** [2s 6c Qc] [8c]
Colonel Mustard bets $18
iamVillaiNmo calls $18
*** RIVER *** [2s 6c Qc 8c] [3h]
Villain bets $236.05, and is all in
iamVillaiNmo: i only call cause it is"Players Name Here"
iamVillaiNmo calls $76.15, and is all inUncalled bet of $159.90 returned to Villain.
Showdown:
Villain shows AK. Mo D shows Three Eights and it holds up.
I was kinda worried because earlier the biggerst FISH in the world sits at my normal table.
This guy thinks he is so fucking funny....
Full Tilt Poker Game #2322855640: Table Dester (6 max) - $0.10/$0.25 - No Limit Hold'em - 18:08:16 ET - 2007/04/30
Seat 1: Callahanharry ($46.05)
Seat 2: Spear1 ($25.95)
Seat 3: Spartas300 ($24.15)
Seat 4: Jacko23 ($23.15)
Seat 5: Nannuckk ($24.35)
Seat 6: iamVillaiNmo ($25)
Nannuckk posts the small blind of $0.10
iamVillaiNmo posts the big blind of $0.25
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to iamVillaiNmo [4h 4d]
Callahanharry calls $0.25
Spear1 raises to $1.10
Spartas300 folds
Jacko23 folds
Nannuckk folds
iamVillaiNmo raises to $3.65
Callahanharry folds
iamVillaiNmo: lol
Spear1 calls $2.55
*** FLOP *** [7h 4s Js]
iamVillaiNmo bets $4
Spear1 calls $4
*** TURN *** [7h 4s Js] [3d]
iamVillaiNmo checks
Spear1 bets $18.30, and is all in
iamVillaiNmo calls $17.35, and is all inSpear1 shows [3s 7c]
iamVillaiNmo shows [4h 4d]
iamVillaiNmo: lololol
*** RIVER *** [7h 4s Js 3d] [7d]
Spear1 shows a full house, Sevens full of Threes
iamVillaiNmo shows a full house, Fours full of house, Sevens full of Threes
iamVillaiNmo: ahghgghqes
Spear1: LOLOLOLOLOL
iamVillaiNmo is sitting out
I guess 73 is the nuts.
Rollercoaster......
Of Love...
"Edited on 05/01/2007 because I was a little derogatory and used terms that I should not."
LOL. I wont lie but I guess I can be the man. A dickhead; but, still THE man.
I never want to be disrespectful or arrogant but sometimes I feel like I am on top of the world.
I can get who and what I want when I want. Of course, there are exceptions. Those exceptions, anything I have to chase, makes life fun.
The problem is: I do not consciously seek the proverbial easy catch. I just seem to run into them constantly. I try to stay away but I know I want more.
So other than finding a decent woman which I realize will probably never happen at a bar....everything is GOOT.
Poker is awesome, pool is awesome, and women are awesome.
I guess I am just sick of wasting time for nothing. Stressing over chicks and my career for nothing. I get what I fucking want when I want it and I proved it to myself tonight and in the past.
I am done fucking with anyone or anything that is not worth my time.
I am bored of running around. I am bored with it so I resign my pimp hood.
Now, this doesn't mean I will "wife" anyone. Does not mean I will fall in love with anyone on a snap. Does not mean that I am going crazy and running to find so person. These are all huge misconceptions.
Just means that I know where my life is heading now and I am happy.
Holla
"Edited on 05/01/2007 because I was a little derogatory and used terms that I should not."
LOL. I wont lie but I guess I can be the man. A dickhead; but, still THE man.
I never want to be disrespectful or arrogant but sometimes I feel like I am on top of the world.
I can get who and what I want when I want. Of course, there are exceptions. Those exceptions, anything I have to chase, makes life fun.
The problem is: I do not consciously seek the proverbial easy catch. I just seem to run into them constantly. I try to stay away but I know I want more.
So other than finding a decent woman which I realize will probably never happen at a bar....everything is GOOT.
Poker is awesome, pool is awesome, and women are awesome.
I guess I am just sick of wasting time for nothing. Stressing over chicks and my career for nothing. I get what I fucking want when I want it and I proved it to myself tonight and in the past.
I am done fucking with anyone or anything that is not worth my time.
I am bored of running around. I am bored with it so I resign my pimp hood.
Now, this doesn't mean I will "wife" anyone. Does not mean I will fall in love with anyone on a snap. Does not mean that I am going crazy and running to find so person. These are all huge misconceptions.
Just means that I know where my life is heading now and I am happy.
Holla
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